quick updates. Rugby camp starts the day after tomorrow. I've been training all summer for this, and without getting too much into jock mode, (ie talking about benching, sprint times, etc.) I'm really proud of the progress I've made this summer. Rugby is very much a confidence sport, and I am very much a confidence player. If I feel like those around me have little confidence in me, I tend to play poorer. This summer, the training has been much more focused, and I feel like I'm going in knowing I will be one of the better players out on the field. This is encouraging on a personal level, and allows me to elevate into a leadership role, which is where I like to be.
school starts Sept. 2nd. my class schedule sucks. hopefully the classes will be good, interesting, whatever. there is only one I'm really interested in taking which of course is focused on my major. Two of the classes are BS and I am just looking to work hard enough for those A's. School, Rugby, Work. I am genuinely looking forward to the routine. I've decided to cut my work hour availability to 15 hours a week. This gives me just enough money to cover food each month for me (with little spending cash alloted unfortunately). I'm serious about my 4.0 this semester, I know I say that to myself every semester(and one semester I did it, interestingly enough it was a semester of all history/political science classes and an English class), but this time it's for real. the 2 year goal is about to be set in motion and so far in life I have yet to fail at a two year goal. they don't always go exactly as planned, but ultimately I have been very satisfied with the results.
Music. Music has never been the same for me since I quit stick to your guns. so much passion left me when I left that part of my life. In a way it saddens me. I set up my guitar equipment in my "new" room, hopefully as a way of encouraging me to take out my guitar and actually play. (my amp hasn't been turned on since I quit and my strings haven't been changed since my last tour). In a way this brings me back to the idea of having a purpose in life. Back when I was playing, I had a purpose to be doing so. playing now so far has had little purpose other than to distract me for 30 minutes at a time. I also set my trumpet out in my room. This too was done in hopes of rekindling that spirit I know I had at one point. Now that I'm thinking about it, maybe that passion has been transferred to other things, but I like to think something I loved so much will always remain with me, and for now I refuse to give up on it. I've definitely been reading up a lot more about music, listening to new bands, exploring what's out there. This is something I haven't done since tower records decided to shut its doors. something about shopping online for music is so much more less appealing than browsing seemingly endless aisles of cd's hoping to find something totally new and awesome.
For now, my Radiohead binge remains, including Christopher O'Reilly's "True Love Waits" album which is basically Radiohead songs remixed on a piano. All in all, combined with my new mixes I create for myself for time to time, I hope this rekindled spirit continues to grow, who knows, maybe I'll start going to shows again.
Finishing this post, I've realized it is now 12:12 aug. 22nd, exactly two months since my last post. sweet.
