just under two months

since my last post. No, I haven't forgotten about blogger; it's just that I have had little I felt I needed to write down in order to get off my chest. Even now, I don't feel a whole lot needs to be said. Mostly just looking for a way of saying things without feeling as if I'm revealing too much to someone I don't know too well or would rather not want them knowing too many revealing details of my life and inner thoughts.

quick updates. Rugby camp starts the day after tomorrow. I've been training all summer for this, and without getting too much into jock mode, (ie talking about benching, sprint times, etc.) I'm really proud of the progress I've made this summer. Rugby is very much a confidence sport, and I am very much a confidence player. If I feel like those around me have little confidence in me, I tend to play poorer. This summer, the training has been much more focused, and I feel like I'm going in knowing I will be one of the better players out on the field. This is encouraging on a personal level, and allows me to elevate into a leadership role, which is where I like to be.

school starts Sept. 2nd. my class schedule sucks. hopefully the classes will be good, interesting, whatever. there is only one I'm really interested in taking which of course is focused on my major. Two of the classes are BS and I am just looking to work hard enough for those A's. School, Rugby, Work. I am genuinely looking forward to the routine. I've decided to cut my work hour availability to 15 hours a week. This gives me just enough money to cover food each month for me (with little spending cash alloted unfortunately). I'm serious about my 4.0 this semester, I know I say that to myself every semester(and one semester I did it, interestingly enough it was a semester of all history/political science classes and an English class), but this time it's for real. the 2 year goal is about to be set in motion and so far in life I have yet to fail at a two year goal. they don't always go exactly as planned, but ultimately I have been very satisfied with the results.

Music. Music has never been the same for me since I quit stick to your guns. so much passion left me when I left that part of my life. In a way it saddens me. I set up my guitar equipment in my "new" room, hopefully as a way of encouraging me to take out my guitar and actually play. (my amp hasn't been turned on since I quit and my strings haven't been changed since my last tour). In a way this brings me back to the idea of having a purpose in life. Back when I was playing, I had a purpose to be doing so. playing now so far has had little purpose other than to distract me for 30 minutes at a time. I also set my trumpet out in my room. This too was done in hopes of rekindling that spirit I know I had at one point. Now that I'm thinking about it, maybe that passion has been transferred to other things, but I like to think something I loved so much will always remain with me, and for now I refuse to give up on it. I've definitely been reading up a lot more about music, listening to new bands, exploring what's out there. This is something I haven't done since tower records decided to shut its doors. something about shopping online for music is so much more less appealing than browsing seemingly endless aisles of cd's hoping to find something totally new and awesome.

For now, my Radiohead binge remains, including Christopher O'Reilly's "True Love Waits" album which is basically Radiohead songs remixed on a piano. All in all, combined with my new mixes I create for myself for time to time, I hope this rekindled spirit continues to grow, who knows, maybe I'll start going to shows again.

Finishing this post, I've realized it is now 12:12 aug. 22nd, exactly two months since my last post. sweet.

College parties

It's tough not to over generalize. I'm doing my best to reserve judgement but it's difficult when people act this stupid. My roommates birthday is tonight so she decided to have people over. I'm totally cool with that, its not like I have to be up early or anything. It's frustrating however when party conversations are reduced to shouting matches about nothing and a constant ongoing hour long conversation regarding some girl loosing her phone. I have not been involved with any of this, merely observing it all through the walls of my own room. 

I guess now I realize why I don't like having parties, drunk kids are dumb and annoying. I might be enjoying it more if I was out there having a drink and enjoying it with them, and I tried to do that for about 40 minutes. didn't work. 

Anyways, before I start ranting too much and being too mean and judgmental I'll just end now. 

Tommorrow, I'm going to start my workouts! its going to be sweet.

I've had a really nice time, but my dogs need to be fed

So this update is beyond several days late, slightly pathetic and I apologize. I am now officially a Boston University undergraduate student. Sweet! It's an awesome feeling and I feel quite accomplished. This has been a very long two year goal and I'm very thankful I've finally made it. I've thoroughly enjoyed the adventures, the ups and downs, the moments of doubt, all in all, incredibly rewarding. I'm looking forward to the multitude of doors that should be opening for me. 

With this change, I feel my chapter as a Trader Joe's employee will be closing within the next couple of months. I am completely grateful for the memories, learning experiences, and wonderful friendships I have developed there, but at this point, I feel like it is the right time to move on. I will be looking for employment on the BU campus, preferably something in the Arts and Sciences school, within the International Relations department. As well, there should be a good amount of internships opening for me, and oppertunities to grow elsewhere. 

I'm beginning to also feel like Boston is home. I still am in the habit of referring to California as home, and in a way it always will be, but I like to think that my heart will grow more for this city and begin to recognize it as home. I think the one thing holding this growth back is the lack of relationships out here. This is in no way a complaint for a lack of friendships, more it simply is something I understand comes with time. 

My neighbors are crazy Russians, they yell a lot in Russian, at times entertaining, and at times a little sad because I've never once desired to live a life where I was constantly that angry. 

Dracula's Daughter

Just an update. Nothing profound here. I spent most of my day running errands, spending money I shouldn't be spending. I now have all of my music and files off of my old computer and onto a new external hard drive. I'm still confused however as to how I'm supposed to load new music onto the new hard drive via my laptop without eating up precious GB space on my laptop. even more confusing, how do I update my ipod via the new hard drive. (this question is slightly rhetorical, however can also be directed towards Sheri since I'm 99.99999% sure she is/will be the only one that ever reads this blog). 

I'm semi seriously looking up job adds on craig's list in the Boston area. If I find something really sweet and awesome, I might take it. I just hope this 3 day a week thing at Trader Joe's stops. I've been working too hard there to just give up I feel, but at the same time I don't yet feel invested in this store as I did in the last one. I worked my ass off and hopefully got some recognition, enough to award me maybe four days a week? Anyways, making friends there is going to be slightly more difficult than I imagined. There is pretty much no time in the store where business is "slow". this is nice when making time go by faster, but for having multiple social breaks throughout my day, not so much. 

Anyways, I have a free day tommorrow, I still have other odds and ends errands to clear up, hopefully I'll get a free Ipod out of one of them. (seriously, long story, but hopefully I do). 

I'm out!

5-O makes me want to flip, Larry David style

Here is an old song I started writing last year. It's not finished, but in a way it is. I don't know, it's something I was really excited to start but never really got a chance to brainstorm more on it. maybe by posting it I'll find a way to.

I’ve resolved to

Remain resolute

To maintain my weary state

And not succomb to fate

 

And free will I be

When the shore, I have reached

Until then I will commit

To fight against this tide

That just won’t give in

Boston

Today is my first full day in Boston. Like Ben Franklin recommended, I was up at 4:45 this morning. Sweet. It was actually not my idea, my dad needed to be at the airport at 5:30 this morning. Now I'm just waiting for things like radio shack, target, etc. to be open so I can pick up some essentials to make this apartment like home. 

My walls are sky blue with a pink trim around them. NOT sweet. I've never painted before, I guess this will be my crash course. The room is also slightly smaller than I had anticipated, I guess I'll just have to be creative in how I store things. This type of city living also requires a reorganization of how I live my day to day, and how I prepare for my day to day. I have such a long list of things to do. I'll probably be taking a nap around 1 this afternoon. word. 

Why is it i worked so hard in getting my last place clean, only to find my new place is a complete mess. I'm pretty sure these hardwood floors haven't been scrubbed in over a year. My roommates seem nice, but we'll see how clean they are, they claim to be, though I see no evidence of that. I'm already yawning writing this, I need to get active and involved, there was a bagel store down the street I saw, time for some caffeinated beverages and something to eat. (the fridge is an utter disaster and needs to be cleaned asap). 

Now to go study some maps of the places I need to go in the hopes I won't get lost and look like the new guy in the city who's walking in circles. 

A new found respect

This one goes out to all the stay at home/soccer moms. 

So I just spent nearly two hours scrubbing my Tub. I feel very accomplished finally finishing, but the rest of the house? Man, maybe I shouldn't wait every six months to clean these sorts of things. Now to go watch some romantic comedies.

(this was a weak update, but I just needed to say it).